Someday, I may be where my 7th grade self thought I would be at this time—but not today. Today I am where I am supposed to be. I spent 3 months in Kenya, and today I am living life in the path I can see. Bemoaning where I wish I was will make me miss out on the myriad of blessings that I do have today. I am blessed to have food on the table, a fairly good car to drive, a job that I enjoy, to name a few—and for today that is okay.
Someday, I may have my own home, and a set career—but not today. Today, I am one of the “boomerang generation” living at home so I can save for graduate school. I am back in my first room, sharing a kitchen, and sharing ideas of what running a house aka compromising so my mother and I trip over each other less…I’ll take it as a good lesson and training for marriage. Today, that’s okay.
Someday, I may be called a “wife”, “mother”, “sister”—but not today. Today I am “teacher”, “friend”, “daughter”—and that’s okay. I have to choose to be content in the relationships that are set before me. I am incredibly blessed to be supported by my family, life-long friends, and new friends from around the world. Sure, each of these relationships ebbs and flows, and rightfully changes as we enter into different stages at just the right time for each of us. Jealousy kills so much joy, it’s not worth it and never changes the circumstance for the better, never. I am placed where I need to be to flourish and to help others do the same-while today that doesn’t include a spouse or my own children—it does include precious souls and dear friends—potato potahto.
Someday, I may end up looking back longingly at THIS day—and I don’t want to take either of them for granted. One of the many things Kenya taught me was that dreams are important and significant not just when they are realized, but because of the journey they are. Right now, I am on my journey to so many someday’s, but each day matters. Those “someday’s” are not realized today—and that is more than okay.
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